So as you may, or may not know from reading here at Another Day of Life, things have been, well rough in my world. I have been really struggling to try and keep my head on right. It’s always easy to play the “blame game” when things aren’t how we want them in out lives, we can just pretend that it’s always someone else’s fault, and that we carry none of the responsibility, that we shoulder none of the blame. That is a bogus attempt to make us fell better and ensure that we ourselves maybe hide the truths from ourselves.
Now I can sit here and realize that I am not where I want to be and in many ways my life is not as I want it to be. There are many aspects of my life that were in a better place 10 years ago, even 8 years ago. It it other peoples fault that it isn’t where I want it to be? Maybe they had a hand in it, sure, but the buck stops here. So I need to accept that and realize that sometimes you have to accept the gift of change.
FIRMLY. I am the Capitan of my own ship, and ultimately the master of my own destiny. No one can change the course but me, and I have to make te decision and the choice to change it. Yes I am not happy with my life, my finances, my weight, my overall “where I am at this point”. But to change it I have to own it. Right now I don’t.
Somewhere along the journey I stopped being the person I was and started being the victim, the person I never wanted to be, the person I never wanted to see in the mirror. The person I always seemed to be trying to save. But then when I became the victim, somehow, there was no one to save me, because I was too busy feeling sorry for me.
Now moving from a position of passenger back to pilot in my life is not going to be a task of ease. There is no magic button to press no wand I can wave, its going to be a long and at times painful journey. One though that is nessecary. These changes will effect both my personal, professional and online life as we know it.
As far as this site AnotherDayofLife.com, it’s always been like a child to me. One that started as a place to rant, then as a place to try and gain some additional income, and then really over the last 2 years, it’s become somewhat like me, kind of floundering. So I have seriously thought of letting it go. Though there is a part of me that’s not quite ready.
So instead I will once again try to transform this into the site I origionally intended for it to be, and as part of that I will be doing some re-designing, re-thinking, and re-imagining. I will also posbbily be looking to bring on some more permanant writers (sorry unpaid, at least for now) to showcase some of the rich talent that exists out there. more on that later.
As part of that howver, I will be shutting down guest post submissions as of February 1, 2013. That being said, if you have contacted me, or already submitted something, or submit before the system comes down I will review and post if it meets with the guidelines.
Talk to you soon!